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My Worst Nightmare, It Came True

2006-10-03T18:33:00.000+08:00

I going to go back australia le... its 70% chance of goin back... it depends on my studies for this end of year... to get to sec 3 its 50% chance lor... haha... Its all over in Singapore... But what i worry most is still you... My most wanted dream never came true... but this nightmare did... I love you

~Back~

2006-09-17T14:32:00.000+08:00

So long nvr come on9 le... caused by my nu ers and my classmates la... so bad... go dunno do wad to the MSN then hack my whole system.. then caused the IE and MF cannot used... so need to reformat the whole comp. SO SUCKS LA!!! waste of time also... then all my songs and pictures all GONE!!! PICTURES!!! THE PICTURES so preciouS!!! haix... Now i cant get to see her... so saddening... haix...

HOPES, MIRACLES,BELIEVE

2006-08-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

YEA!!! I AM BACK FOR MORE MAN!!! HOPES COMING BACK TO ME... CANT BELIEVE THIS THING TO HAPPEN... WHAT A MIRACLE!!! I AM BACK FOR MORE!!! WOOHOO!!! YEA!!!

Helplessly, Hopeless, Pathetic

2006-08-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

Given up on hope liao... Think today might be my last day writing in this blog le... Haix... Hope that guy can give you happiness ba... Its all over... Time and Time again getting hurt deeply through this days... Only wanting to have you by my side... Is that too much? I dont know... But I think its time i put it behind me... and look towards the future le...拿的起，放的下，应该离开你了，一定要好好保重了... Feeling so helpless and hopeless... Looking so pathetic... Been taken away... Been loved... Been touched... Been hurt... I have given up on everything! My life goes meaniless... I cant take it anymore... I HATE YOU A LOT... U "toot" ..... sorry to say that too... But I also dont wish to say it... Its all over... BYE

A Story Of Encouragement

2006-08-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

A girl asked her mother to buy her a doll for her birthday present... But the mother bought a bottle of purfume for her... The girl was disappointed... But her mother told her something... If you have miss something in your childhood then dont miss it again in the future... This story tells you not to look back at the past but strive for the future...

Fun Man...

2006-08-29T17:53:00.000+08:00

Waa... Today so fun... I play dota in my friend's house with my other school mates... They all keep bully on 1 noob... haha... then I joined in the fun... started to play and just getting used to the hero... Then, we had a plan of 2 on 1 on Eddie... Anyway sorry Eddie I go backstab you XD... Today, in school, we planned to go for a class outing on Tuesday, we planned to barbucue and have rides around East Coast... I scared I cant forget the memories i had there... The time when i got angry and sad... I hated the long bus rides... So boring... You have been avoiding me... Time and time again... I just dont know why... I just keep bluffing myself and covering for you... Thinking that you might be tired or busy so you did not reply my messages... But I dont know how long I can bluff myself anymore... Should I stop?

sighs So Tired...

2006-08-28T16:58:00.000+08:00

*sighs* so tired now... I am so restless nowadays... keep sleeping in school... Failing more and more exams... This torture just cant end for me till you come back by my side... Today my friends jio me play basketball... then I very tired and wanted to reject them but... I thought i still can play... In the end muscle cramps and ache on my hand... haix... then KJ gf, HY come with Joey and 1 guai lan fat pig from CSS sec 1 come to the basketball court... Then I jio the fat pig 1 on 1 basketball... then playing halfway I do stunt then purposely elbow him... HAHA... WHACK THE NOSE SIA!!! XD Then he whine like a sissy say " hen tong leh..." We all laugh at him non-stop...After that, they all got to go home le... So left me and Meldon, then i jio him 1 on 1 basketball, he lose by 5-1... After that I damn tired liao lor... Meldon tell me play shooting de... Then anything lor... We play bullet... I was winning like siao la... 10-2 then after that Meldon called out "S_m_n_h_" the name... Then I du lan liao lor... all never shoot in... till 1-1 then I lucky lucky score 1... Then we ended the game... Haix so tired... I really cannot continue to live on like that... Its really tiring... Torturing... Painful and many other things that I can hardly describe... haix... I just wished you can share your problems with me... I also dont want you to suffer alone there... Having so much people to fan you... Just hope you are fine and ya... Take cares... bye bye

~Lonely Night~

2006-08-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

Wanting to know how you felt... When you accepted my present... Hoped you like it a lot... Not bad for a suprise right? Though that made me really bankrupt now... But I still think its worth it afterall... Had not been sleeping for many days... Had not had a good and fine shower... Or even brushed my teeth for 5 days... Just for the present to give you... Though we broke up... I still care for you... And hoping you to come back to me... Today was actually our first month but it turned out not to be one... But a lonely night alone in the room... Staring at 4 walls, 1 ceiling and 1 floor... This day of each month... 27th... I will not forget... Even how much I try...Maybe going overseas can help me make me forget about the past... The days with you... But I dont want to forget... Its my most precious momments with you... I also dont wish to leave my friends... In Singapore... I think I still have to carry on with my life... A new chapter of my life starts... Think you are having fun right now... outside... with mei hui they all... But still think about your health k? Dont make me worry le... I only want to ask something... Can we patch up again?

my poem to u..

2006-08-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

I will never forget the days we once had
The days when you were everything to me
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever
But now I realize that was all a big dream
The feelings I have for you will never go
I wish I could take back that one regretful day
The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms
Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets
That I would once have to live through
The sight of you in someone else's arms
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces
I sometimes wonder if you still think of me
Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd
I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
But for now, I'll sit here silently
Remembering all the memories we once shared
Everyday my love grows much stronger
Hoping that one day you will feel the same
And put back the pieces of my broken heart.
[[sHaUn]]
终于折完了，希望你会喜欢我自己折的心，我爱你，这首寺送给你^

sighs Leaving so fast? Coming Back?

2006-08-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

Just made a call to Wei Yu... I will miss her a lot... She treated me very good... But now she is going to leave... Back to US for studies... I hope you have a good bon voyage jie... Without you I dont know how am I going to live for the rest of my life... You took care of my everything... You cheered me up... And stuffs like that... You are really a part of my life... But you are just the missing part of my life too now... Hope your return back to Singapore can be as fast as possible... And remember to try to call me every now and then when you are in the States... I love you loads... muacks...

Ouch! It Really Hurts

2006-08-25T17:45:00.000+08:00

Today... I just fracture one of my left hand the finger... Still so pain... Cause i quarrelled with Meldon... Then we played 1 on 1 basketball... though he lost 7-6 but i fractured my finger... HAHA... I am here to say sorry to Meldon too... Though I fractured my finger... I still think I need to carry on... Its been days I never had a good night sleep... Everyday was just folding and cutting straws... Is it worth suffering neh? My friends told me to stop... If she still doesnt touched for what I have done... All my efforts gone le... But I GOT TRY AT LEAST RIGHT? I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP WHEN I HAVE DONE IT HALF WAY... 我是不会半途而废的...Haix... * sighs* Wei Yu is going back overseas tomorrow early in the morning le... how i wish i could see her off... but she dont allow... JIE!!! i will surely miss you!!! hehe... i will take care of myself de... ( I hope so) JIE!!! you must take care of yourself there lor!!! Got winter mus wear more clothings k? I also dont know what more to say le... Only just that all I know is that I will miss you a lot... muacks!!! and BYE BYE

Living All On My Own...

2006-08-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

*sighs* its been quite a long while... haix... I really miss you...But the day is coming... I need to be awake... Trying to keep myself awake... To finish what I think that needs to be done... *sighs & more sighs* WEI YU IS LEAVING LE!!! Today might be the last day that i might see her for another like 4 months... I am going to miss her quite a lot too...I don't know who to find to talk to... Jie... You really treat me very good... I really love you a lot... though you are wanted by so many people... But I only left Jia Wei with me after you go leh... *sighs*...This world is like that... We won't love reality... Cause it sucks... I want to live a world of my own... My World...My Space...My Life... And no one should i care for... Or should care for me... Living in the world of darkness... And still missing you... please don't avoid me le can?

The Day That I Cried In....

2006-08-23T20:41:00.000+08:00

You really hurt me... You really totally changed... You was like nothing has happen to you... Totally NOTHING...NO FEELINGS AT ALL you know how hurt i felt? It cant be desbribed anymore... But something really quite cheered me up... I have such a good Gan-Jie... Wei Yu she as I have said she is going back to the states... And all I know that the one that she worry most now is me... But I actually cried in school today!!! OMG la!!! My first time lor... haix...*sighs... I had no mood at all... But i actually took jia wei's letter to read... And Wei Yu wrote something about me... She said the one she worry most now is me... I was so happy yet sad... Today i just bought straws... i had been folding since the afternoon... I did not listen to the class... The teachers talking... The teacher's warning.. almost landed me in trouble... But do I care? I jus want to get everything that i want to do by SUNDAY... But i don't think I can make it... Now I just want to wish and bless that Jia Wei will be with Wei Yu and hope them to have forever happiness... Not like me... (rEgReTs) but still I willing to wait...

My First Post...

2006-08-22T13:51:00.000+08:00

Days passing by... I cant sleep... I cant eat... I don't know what to do... Nobody will understand how i feel now... I am missing you... I cant live without you... I thought I could be with you forever... But things have changed... I have changed... You have changed... Everything changed... I am really sorry if i did anything wrong to you... I will still wait for the day to come...Even if it wont come... All I know is tat I LOVE YOU FOREVER 愛してるTime passing by so slowly... Tick Tock Tick Tock... Friends are the best... Friends are easy to come by... But true friends are hard to come by...Though you left me... My life still needs to carry on... But its going to be very miserable life... When I was down, my JIE = Wei Yu cheered me up... She told me so many stories of her own... but this coming saturday, she is leaving to taiwan and back to US for further studies... Without her i dont know what will happen to me... I will miss her... But another JIE of mine = Mei Hui also tried to cheer me up... i appretiate it... ty wors... LOVE YOU GUYS and HER*sighs* Today... I so jealous of KJ and HY!!! Though they very shy... But yet so loving... Haix... Today saw the V_ _ _ _ _ _ O_ _ and the K _ _ I already sian liao lor... Haix... now my baobei mei mei got her ex new hp no. le... Asking what she should do... all I told her was to follow her heart, but so as long as you dont regret for wads going to happen next... cause 付出的爱收不回...我爱的是只有一个，那就是你。我爱你一生一世，生生死死, 我只想用我這一輩子去愛你從今以後你會是所有幸福的理由,只是简简单单的爱过 ,当故事结束之后,心也喜欢一个人寂寞,你要的不是我,能给的不是我,分開也是另一種明白,我給你最好的疼愛是手放開. Last time I always tell my friends to look at things at a different angle... but I myself cant do it... I cant face the reality... I have to bluff myself... All I wan to know now is that 你还爱我吗?